Friday, September 10, 2010

Prayers for Little Miss C

*ALERT* Another poop post. Seriously, if you can't deal with reading about poop. Skip this post.

I need help, universe. I need help managing my frustration and anger. I need help controlling my reactions and responses. I need help. And I need prayers for my little one.

Little Miss C is on day five. Day five of not pooping. This is typically when we have broken down and given her a suppository. But we've decided to not go that route this time. We've come to that twice in the last month or so and she does not do well. Sure, the desired effect of removing the blockage happens, but she gets pale, shaky and overall just looks like hell. It clearly has side affects that are less than desirable. Less desirable than what she is dealing with now? We'll see.

So, here we sit on day five with a little girl who had a hard time sleeping last night because her tummy was cramping. I had to put her in the diaper over night - which we've been out of for over a month - because she is seeping. When she woke this morning I had to give her a quick bath to clean her up.

And she still wouldn't poop.

So we got dressed and she ate her waffle, squirming and clenching the whole time, crying. She finally went and sat on the potty but wouldn't poop. Or even pee for that matter.

Can you imagine the pain she is in?

And I'm not helping. I see how she is hurting herself and all I can think of is how much damage she could be doing to herself. And I just don't get it. I don't. I can't get her to change her mind that it would be better if she just pooped.

People tell me that it may be because she is afraid of losing part of herself. But I don't know if I buy that. When she is pooping, we don't get a sense of that at all - in fact she is proud that she has pooped.

Other ideas are that she is scared that is will hurt. That I get. You bet it will, because we are on day five. It hurts when we're on day three. This girl needs to poop every day or we have a problem. Not kidding you.

Fiber the issue, don't think so. My girl eats her veggies and fruits all day every day. Back her off milk, already doing that. Cheese. Out. Bananas. No more.

I can't focus. I walked halfway into work this morning before realizing that I left my laptop in the car. I have no patience with anyone else. Especially if people won't listen to me. I have to figure out how to let this go.

Please send prayers her way. I know it sounds trite, but we need all the help we can get. This vicious cycle needs to stop.


Kate said...

Poor baby. And poor, poor mommy. Sending good thoughts your way.

Cello Mama said...

I'm so sorry, Holly. Potty training has been the bane of my existence for the last 2 years. It is the hardest thing I've ever had to do my whole life - and it's still an ongoing struggle.

One suggestion I have, if you haven't already tried it, is Miralax. I have a few friends who've had "withholders" and they swear by it (I have used it on occasion for Kate when she was younger and would get a little backed up). It's still a laxative, but gentle enough to use every day - without the cramping, etc. of a laxative suppository. They have used it daily for MONTHS to help make sure the kids keep going, and to help them get over any "fear" that it might hurt. It dissolves in any liquid and is tasteless and colorless. You might want to check it out. It's kind of a miracle laxative.

Sarita said...

Oh man, Ditto Kate, Poor Claire and poor you.

carrster said...

Oh geez, sorry to hear that!! My nephews & niece (the trips) are all (I think) on Miralax & have been for months. It makes it difficult the other way (ie: can't always control the bowels) but at least it may make things easier so she doesn't end up in so much pain. That really sucks. I hope that things change for you guys soon!